22 Jan

it’s been nearly a week since i updated this. great start!

to the note I gave myself in the previous post, about not getting Taco Bell…. I didn’t that night, but I went all out the next afternoon when I left work early and drove through, picking up a handful of menu items. And I felt GROSS.

I worked from home the next two days and proceeded to somewhat binge there, like I always do. Eating lots of leftovers, ordering Thai food one day and generally eating all day like it was my job vs. my actual job I feel I have yet to master.

I ordered new pots and pans that I LOVE. somehow I have this idea that having fancy cookware will make me a healthier person, but it really just comes down to eating less.

I did a ton of food prep yesterday – made homemade NYT recipe bolognese, butter chicken and a zucchini lasagna (subbed out two layers of noodles and replaced with zucchini).

That’s all well and great, but then I can’t proceed to eat with abandon.

Today, I’ve eaten:

  • food prepped strawberry coconut overnight oats
  • one serving zucchini lasagna
  • 1/5 servings (if we’re being honest) of bolognese with farfalle noodles
  • one apple
  • one cookie from a delivery at work
  • one grande soy vanilla chai latte from Starbucks (which I walked to this morning– more walking than I usually do because I’m a lazy slug)


Tonight, I’ll eat lasagna for dinner probably. need to try and have a reasonably sized portion.

It’s like I stuff myself with food constantly – can never be hungry – or else I’ll be forced to feel something, whether it’s hunger, sadness, anger.

Let’s not eat anything else at work today, ok?


you’ve got this

16 Jan

hi, it’s been a while. my last post was about me starting Whole 30 some time ago. I sort of did it, sort of didn’t.

I’m letting bygones be bygones.


It’s Tuesday, January 16. As the Germans I work with say, it’s Kalendar Week 3.


I’m as big as can be, and it’s got to stop. I need new habits.

I’ve gotten bigger, my wallet smaller, my self-esteem lower, my wardrobe selection tiny.

And I’ve gotten sneaky with food again, buying and eating it when I shouldn’t. Eating to excess because I feel like it’s something I can control, and maybe by getting away with it, I feel a small victory and sense of pleasure when I otherwise may feel sad, stressed, overwhelmed, guilty. But each time I do this, i feel like dirt. I literally say to myself, pulling away in my car after having inhaled two whopper juniors, or a handful of Taco Bell menu items — “you are a monster. you are a dirt person.”

so, I’m hoping to stop that.

I need to stop plotting out my days around food. Yes, it’s important to have a general plan and meal prep, and have groceries on hand, and ensure healthy food is available so I don’t make even worse choices, but my entire day shouldn’t revolve around food.

so I’m hoping to use this platform as a place to keep myself accountable and tell someone (the internet) what food I’ve eaten, what food I’m thinking about, and how I feel.

today i feel somewhat proud so far in that I haven’t bought any food yet.

I meal prepped and made egg cups and really yummy chili, and I have packets of apple cinnamon oatmeal at work. I did stop at Harris Teeter and buy a jug of starbucks iced coffee to get me through the week. I’ll keep that in the fridge at work — and knowing that’s here may make it easier to come up with an excuse for why I should drive through mcdonald’s in the morning to get an iced coffee…. plus two burritos and a sausage and cheese mcgriddle and hashbrown….

so today i’ve eaten:

  • three egg cups (one in the car, two at work)
  • one packet of apple cinnamon oatmeal
  • one glass of iced coffee
  • one Tupperware of chili, topped over gluten free elbow noodles (meal prepped on MLK)
  • one Oikos greek vanilla yogurt + handful of ginger hemp granola (provided by work) and one apple (provided by work)


I have plans this evening to make my final Blue Apron meal from the delivery that came last week – pork chops with apple and broccoli. But, I suspect my boyfriend may have us make the take/bake pizza we bought at aldi yesterday. if we do that…. I am limiting myself to two slices.

and i’m going to throw away that silly chocolate covered apple i brought home from work last week and feel the need to eat…. even though it’s bad for me, and even though it was free and i have no imperative to not waste it.

I am having inklings of getting taco bell drive thru on the way home. a) it sounds good, especially the frito buritto b) it’s been a sad/frustrating day and i feel down about the future…. part of me thinks that fritos burrito will make me feel happy for a split second, and then i will eat less pizza because i will have filled up on taco bell.

these are the things i think about.

whole 30

10 Jan

starting it – boom.

for accountability and tracking:

day one:


leftover chicken with red, green and yellow peppers, onion and garlic


whole 30 Chili


deconstructed steak lettuce wrap with roasted potatoes, peppers and onions


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Sandwiches. That is all.

25 May

We’ve been eating SO MANY sandwiches lately. They are absolutely delicious, so easy to make and relatively healthy. Sadly, we’ve been eating them so fast after making them that we don’t have photographic proof of their wonderful creation. But. Here is a list of the necessary ingredients to make our current favorite sandwich:

-Wheat bread

-Homemade honey mustard



-One over-medium egg (slightly cooked, slightly runny yolk). While cooking egg, add salt, pepper, curry powder, onion powder and a dash of chili powder

-Cheddar cheese (sliced)

-Mozzarella cheese (crumbled)

-Jalepenos (optional)

Layer how you see fit and devour. So good.

Sponge Bob Birthday Cake!

25 May



This wonderfully hilarious(and accurate!) cake was brought to my school for a student’s fifth birthday party! It was probably the best cake we’ve had all year….not too sugary and the fondant wasn’t too thick and gooey. A cute cake and a great party in my classroom!


Grandpa’s Baked Onions

25 May

Grandpa's Baked Onions

This delicious meal is courtesy of my Grandpa Heley. The recipe is simple and oh so tasty.

-One large white onion
-Salt, pepper
-Two tablespoons of butter
-Garlic powder
-Curry powder

Hollow out middle of whole onion. Place inside butter and all dry ingredients. Wrap in foil. Bake in oven on medium heat for 45 minutes.

Voila! You have a warm, soft, deliciously flavored onion that you can eat as a whole meal or as a side dish.

Amanda’s School Birthday Treats

30 Mar


Just a snapshot of what I took for my kids at school on my birthday (waaaaay back on March 15.) I was trying to find a cake or some kind of big pastry item to take for them, but like most things in Egypt, that ended up being much too difficult. So I bought a huge tin of chocolate truffles, a few Todos (huge HoHo cake type things) for my teacher friends and a bag of Mars bars (which are my favorite chocolate candy bar here.)


I got to have a genuine Egyptian school birthday party! During the last 30 minutes of my KG class, I busted out the truffles, todos and chocolates, was sung to in Arabic and English and got to make all my kids happy with candy. I wasn’t planning on really taking anything to my newly acquired Primary 4 class, seeing as I don’t really like them (no joke,) but I was feeling kind. Sadly, I ran out of chocolates, so before heading upstairs for class, I ran to the store cantina and bought 20 LE worth of Chipsee, or the national brand of chips here. I promised my class that if they all behaved and we got through the necessary chapters in our book, we could have a birthday party. They sort of behaved, and I handed out plates and chipsee to share. My best students got the four remaining Mars bars. 


Another interesting and slightly off Egyptian experience, nonetheless.